Day 250... My first day home with the kids since school started. Their second day back. My littlest monsters meet the teacher day... my day.. a short story.
3:28am - monkey 3 gets up and goes tot he bathroom. Typical. Convince him to go back to bed with promises of his classroom and cake. After all it is day 250.
4:15am - alarm sounds. Stupid o'clock. Tea in the dark? no stamina... water and half a banana. Loaded my running bag with 2 sand bags.. 5 extra pounds. wish to goodness it would hold more, but then the water would have to be removed. Balance, all things in balance.
4:55am - exit the house (later to learn the door awakened monkey 3 who then persisted that it was morning. Typical) Got my super sexy headlamp on and headed in the abyss of potential violence and construction. To be honest I'm realy only afraid of garbage day. Blind girls nemesis... unforeseen obsticals.
5:01am. I see a bobbing light ahead... Must be a twin headlamp. Guide is still not well. I hear here long before I see her. Hills will be interesting for her. And we are off to find an conquer 7 mountain ridges. Ok in truth the darkness expands the city hills. We made it through. I still love that part when you realize you have forgotten you're carrying extra weight. Freeing and character building. Helps me focus.
5:45am - return home find monkey 3 up and wondering in the dark. Convince him to hit the hey for 15 much needed minutes. Lights on now and the Avery house is up. And cue chaos...
6:00am ... coffee? Lunch making, bag prep. Me sitting still. Rare.
6:30am monkeys 1 and 2 hit the floor... more like are sleepily shuffling towards the bathroom... which they then realize they are both headed to and take flight to a sprint. Battles ensue and time stands still.
7:15am - monkey 1 makes some off hand comment that her desk is beside 'the boy'.. my heart skips a beat. I ask Is this the year of the boys? she blushes. My heart nearly stops. I laugh. Part of this journey. I may not be ready. That doesn't seem to matter.
8:10am - monkeys 1 and 2 head off to school, monkey 3 is combing his hair for his teacher meeting. He's been doing this for an hour. It's still sticking up. Typical.
9:00am - we are at the school and monkey 3 can hardly contain his excitement through national anthems and prayers. I can see the pitter patter in his eyes. It's screaming set me free. Let me be. I wanna.
9:05am - sitting in the classroom. I feel like a giant. Miniature objects ... Plays with the blind girls mind. Depth perception be gone.
9:15am - my turn to talk. Yes my child is wonderful. yes he is smart. NO he can't sit still. Yes he will drive you crazy but you will smile every second. That's his job. That's his passion. Laughter. It's what his name means, youthful laughter. And then news of bad news to come. Yes we are in transition. Yes this will be difficult. No this is not the way I wanted things to go. Yes we will work together. I'm feeling like I'm starting to shrink.
9:45am - walmart. Monkey 3 needs a waterbottle. ends up getting a cars thermos and sandwich containers. Monkey three. walking like a big boy. Seeing over the counter. Breaking my heart. Making me smile. Testing me every second.
10:00am - ymca. Monkey 3 into a craft drop in. Time for a swim. Blind girl can't see the clock in the water. I hate not knowing when I need to be done. Swim faster swim faster... choke choke sputter. 1500m done 42 mins. This day was suppose to have a bike in it too. Oh well.
11;)2am - pick up excited monkey 3 who is so proud of crafts and telling the story of them a mile a minute. I keep thinking who needs tv when you have this wonderful bee in your ear?
12:00pm - nap refusal. Typical. News of my mother coming down with cake. After all it is day 250.
2:30pm - mother drops in with muffins. celebrations ensue. Talk of things to come. Comfort there? Not sure. Can't change the snow ball once it starts. Just watching it roll. Praying every turn.
3:55pm - monkey 1 and 2 reappear. Bags and hats and paper I can't read. News and yard tales. OH the noise noise noise... I smile. I laugh.. I think is there any other way? I've lost my floor. Snacks, muffins of course after all it is day 250!
4:30pm - dinner is cooking. Realising as it does I forgot to eat lunch. This isn't good. Sunday is 29km ... I add more pasta to the pot. Take care of me to take care of them. Little steps. Balance focus. Smile.
4:55pm - that moment when you have the last chance to save dinner from overflowing or burning or whatever. Running times times with monkey 2. Trying to stump him. Impossible. Nothing will stop this child. He will save the world. I'm given homework from monkey 1 (for me to do)... in a million words or less describe your child. Ok I can do that. Dinner.. Balance. Monkey 3 wanting ... wanting.... me? let it boil over. Smile laugh live.
5:04pm - sad dinner on table. happy kids in the chairs. Monkey 3 protesting. Typical. Monkey 1 bought out a health pamphlet on changes in puberty. Should I throw this out? it's from last year. I looked at her and said... are you done changing? Where is your desk again? she blushes... MOM!!!!... oh no... boobs, boys, and pads oh my!... she flees the room in giggles. I notice she keeps the flyer. Smile again. She knows we can talk. Hope she holds that thought through the I hate mom phase I know is coming. I feel it like the blister I'm going to get sunday. Sunday... long run... eat more.
6:00pm - table cleared, kids reading... time to ... what? sit and enjoy the air. Laugh at the monkey 2's jokes of the day. listen to stories of other kids not washing their hands post bathroom trips at school. say silent prays mine do. Hand out vitamin c just in case. Laugh some more. This is life. Laugh some more
7:00pm - monkey 3's lack of nap has caught up. The entire neighbourhood knows it. Breathing and helping. distracting and moving through the last moments before bedtime routine. Song comes on the radio ... monkey 2 says how can jesus put you on hold? monkey 1 replies sometimes you have to wait for your prayers to be answered. My heart ... my heart... the things they know. The things I need to learn. The things I'm so afraid of.
7:19pm - monkey 3 finds a spot on the floor and starts to snooze. I've turned my head.. two minutes too long. tickle fights ensue typical... smile chaos... would be find but he has gas from too much raw veggies and is farting from the laughing... we are dying... we are all laughing.. I am crying.. They don't know. Smile...smile girl. One day at a time. One lesson at a time.
My heart stands still waiting for whats to come. Waiting and hoping I know what I'm doing.
7:45pm - monkey kisses... monkey 1 reluctantly gives kisses but we follow tradition and make ewwww gross faces after.. He's not a kisser.. I tell him wait for it. It will come. Some day you'll find that person. That one that makes your world stop spinning. Then things will change. Smile... time stands still for no one. Not even a hopeful thankful blind mother of three....
good night my babies, good night my monkeys... sleep sleep I will miss this you tomorrow... sleep sleep grow and learn. Sleep sleep you are my heros....sleep sleep I love you.
day 250... a day in the life of... this life